The Unquiet Dead

Meeting, Theatre Office, Claire, Amy

They are in the mica-shaded light of the tiny office, discussing the progress of recent returnees in adapting to life here. Claire is wearing soft woolen khaki trousers and a white shirt, like old days when Franz was Director, but her fuzzy golden brown hair is soft. Amy is wearing overalls and a dark blue show t-shirt (The Incredible Mr. Cassinov), and braids. Apparently, one of the most recent is having a very hard time with the 'calls' from his wife who is still incarnate and they are deciding what to do about it.

C: Taking him to the border and letting him see and be heard could be dangerous, or at least more upsetting than it's worth.

A: But you remember what happened to [X]

Several months ago, a similar situation happened and the discarnate was 'strongly advised against' going down near enough to be heard by a loved one, and, following the advice, became so despairing that they had to return to the Rest Center, to be put into a kind of coma until they recover. They are still there.

This begs the question of free will; indeed, of communication with the discarnate from this side at all. Claire, if I may? (We go into the aisle of the house.)

C: Those who come here, who manage to get here without being caught up in the Borderlands or the Midlands, or be so shell-shocked that they need a rest cure, have work to do in sorting themselves out, in acclimatising before they can properly focus and review the life with their guide before going to the Council with their conclusions. This acclimatisation is hindered if they are continually called upon by the incarnate in an emotional manner. The HS or guide should be the one to handle the incarnate's emotion, not the one here. Your traditional cultures have guidelines about this transition period. Your own English-based culture used to have a similar period of a year and a day, when the grave was let to lie and sink before a stone was put up. The family members were encouraged to spend that time in seclusion, away from the grave, before your secular world took over in the 1600s. Those of your present societies who practise shamanism know these proscriptions well. You have wondered often at 'not hearing from' various family members who have come here for long periods after their transition. This is the reason. They are busy. We are busy helping them adjust. Some take longer than others. This is the origin of the phrase 'let the dead bury the dead', as the Judaic culture has this as well.

K: So, what should we say to those who have loved ones who have transitioned, and are having a hard time of it?

C: Prevail upon their friends there to aid and succour them. Or if they are amenable, explain to them that they can call on their HS and guides and we will answer. But make clear that the departed one is busy adjusting to 'eternal' life and making their life review.

K: Thank you. On this subject, what do you do with someone there who insist on interacting with incarnate people in this period?

C: We try our best to dissuade them, but if they insist, they will be escorted to the Borderlands by a guide, not necessarily their own guide and teacher, and watched over during the process. However, more often than not, the experiment is a failure, because while the grieved want communication, they are not of a vibrational pattern to actually experience it.

K: I presume that the companion is there not just as a scout to show the way, but to help them if they should go off the rails, as it were?

C: That is correct. The success of the mental state following such an attempt depends entirely on the vibrational level and experience of the one here. However, it is true that largely, those who request such visits are coming off of a Baby-to-Early Mature soul age life [not that the fragment is actually OF that age, they were just putting on the level for that life role.] Younger souls are typically more malleable and interested in being taken care of, and older souls are too busy enjoying being back and getting back into their lives and homes here.

K: Thank you. This brings up the matter of the Borderlands and retrievals, but I know that you are busy, so I will let you get back to work.

Claire signals an indigo blue/purple light flash – her vibrational signature and level – with a benevolent expression, and then is back in the office with Amy.

Ruby Slippers

Some people are astonished or sceptical when I say that I have clear long-lasting memories as young as six months (of the assassination of JFK), or that I had multiple NDEs (near-death experiences, i.e., being revived) as a tint preemie. In the first case, I can only relate my experience of a house I never afterwards lived in, with people I did not see again after age 16 months. Of the latter, the hospital record will back me up as having 'many periods of apnea' in those 4 months in hospital.

My consciousness during those non-physical episodes was not one of an infant, but of a mature individual, distinct from my Higher Self Claire. The lasting effect of those NDEs has been a rather tenuous attachment to the 3D world, and an intense longing to 'go home', which predictably surfaces when life here is too intense, tense, stressful, or painful for my sensitive nature. I have been told by many people that I 'lack will' or stamina, which contradicts the testimony of the NICU nurses, who said that I was a 'survivor', that I endured due to sheer bloody will.

I have been petitioning my Life Council since I was two years old to be able to come home. They are unrelenting. I have 'work to do' here, related to the very subjects you are reading here. Very few people even know what I mean by 'go home'. They think I literally mean 'go back to my physical house.' A temporary solution is to vault myself into a state where I can 'go home' for a while, which is difficult to do when I am in a 'state' - physically or mentally. That's about the best I can manage here. I'm not knocking it. I will take every 'moment' There I can get while here.

When I heard of Dannion Brinkley, who has experienced three NDEs as an adult, I  was very heartened. He was the first person that I can recall who talked about these matters openly, back in the 1980s. And, having met him, I can say he is as genuine as can be, and a really open and NICE person.

Longing to go home is a very common feeling among NDEers, so at least I am not alone. We all have something here to do, which is why we remain. But access to There is thankfully available to all, at any time, free of charge.

Advice from Dad

Yesterday afternoon, I had a message from my Dad: 'pay close attention to your meeting tomorrow, as it will be of benefit to your search [for enough gainful employment here on the Hill.]'

I found this interesting, because Dad rarely intervenes in my life without my asking his advice on some subject. And, as I had two meetings planned -one with an artist and her husband, and the other with one of the shops - I was curious to see which would be 'of benefit'. The meeting with Lissa and Kurt was very nice. I feel very much at home with artists and artisans and am happily able to function in both right and left-brained ways. I can do simple accounting as easily as design and making of items. As it happened, the shoe shop was open to the vacation homes rental place next door and they called me in there, so, I went in, talked to the owner, filled in the application, and returned it.

I shall be very interested to see which 'sticks', especially as I had some trouble finding Lissa and Kurt at our tiny Second Saturday Art Fair at the nascent Community Center, and thought at one point, 'well, maybe I should just leave'.

Shift

One of the reasons I decided to begin this record is that I recently underwent a transformation in my relationship with my 'I/There', Higher Self, Claire, and my teacher George. This was due to a life change that I made back in October, quitting my 'safe' day job because I was ill, and it was leave or possibly die, especially as the prescribed meds for my adrenal condition at the level at which I was allowed did not help. This precipitated many unforeseen 'adventures' and 'learning experiences.' This begs the question, 'why are bad things allowed to happen?'The answer to this is complex. Sometimes the answer is ' this was  the life plan before coming in.' Sometimes it is 'this was called to the individual by their vibrational level [thoughts, emotions].'

In an effort to understand this latest in 'a series of unfortunate events', I asked Claire why there was this continually bumpy journey.

Claire: This is due to relying on the judgement and suggestions of George, who while he means well, is too attached [to me] to be balanced in his guidance.

Those pithy words were resonating and revolutionary. I recognised the truth of them when they were spoken. This role of mine, what I think of as 'I' here, was one of the first creations of George's when he moved into creating such roles. It would be fair to say that he was attached to the his creation, and invested in seeing it continue, to a degree that, indeed, was unbalanced. His good intentions of seeing often-ill me 'taken care of' have led me into some very bad space, because I very erroneously trusted his judgement more than my own. I decided after this to follow Claire's advice rather than George's, and to accept that his intentions were good.

If I compare George's way of being to that of Claire, I see a person who is practical, pithy, using logic rather than emotion. She is compassionate, but is not sentimental. Her interest is truly in problem solving in very practical ways. Some people There find her tough, but she is in no way unkind.

Then several weeks later, I was driving home from down 'the Hill' as we call Idyllwild, and out of the blue, for reasons I cannot yet fathom, I asked George what it took for him to be persuaded to make me stay when I was a tiny premature infant suffering apnea, and my twin sister had already died. When my sister died, and I was in such a poor way, there was a meeting with my Life Council, Franz, George, Claire, and Amy (whose 'downline' was my sister.) The Life Council was for my staying; everyone else was against (including me.) George is the one who convinced me, and he was persuaded to do so, I  understood, 'against his desire.' I am given to understand that when a direct question is asked, an answer will be given. I was stunned at George's response. He appeared very abashed.

George: I was persuaded that your continuing would allow my experiment to continue.

 I was livid. Ego. It was all about ego.... Except that it made sense of all his efforts to have me 'taken care of in his absence' in the face of my lifelong illness and soft nature.

It took several weeks for me to get my head around this action, and to forgive it and go on with the relationship. I have done, but I put more stock in what Franz advises and certainly what Claire advises.

These conversations bring up the matter of fallibility, time, and personal growth There. Some people appear to believe that just because someone is dead, they know everything, and have nothing to learn, that there is 'no time' at all and everlasting sameness. But there is a scale of 'time' and growth, though it is of a very different scale to that of the 3D. I have experienced moving from one 'status' to another, one job to another, one abode to another. And the experience with George shows that even a lower Mental plane level discarnate person doesn't have all the answers and is subject to 'learning experiences'. This should not be discouraging, rather the opposite. We are always in a space to grow. For George, he has learned from this not to take his work so personally, to 'let the winds of Heaven dance between you.' For me, I have made a tremendous shift towards greater self-reliance and taking advice as ADVICE, just as I would from a friend or sibling here, not as a directive or as coming from someone who 'knows better' than I.

Spiral

When I first began cataloging my experience in places There, I was either in the Theatre, a little pied-à-terre adjacent in Chelsea, which actually belonged to George and was very Art Deco and full of his Everest photographs, or in my little cabin, which was then 'out there' in a certain direction from the Theatre. Since I knew where everything was spatially in relation to where I was, it never occurred to me to draw a map. I knew how to get to the Town and the University, the other two learning centres I had frequent interaction with. I knew where the Welcome and Rest centre was. I knew where the borderlands were where people got stuck sometimes (and from which the hardier of our folk did retrievals.) I also knew there were areas that corresponded to what followers of major religions thought of as their 'paradise' or 'heaven'. I knew my location in relation to other planes (or dimensions, if you will.)

Initially, the Michael Teachings, from the original books by Quinn Yarbro, gave enough of an accurate accounting of location to satisfy my instinctive hunt for proof of what I knew. The entity Michael was a Causal (or, Mental) Plane teacher no longer incarnating in the 3D. I was already aware that people at the level 'above' me did not incarnate in the physical plane,
It wasn't until I came into contact with the Monroe Institute via my publishers in 1992 that I discovered that Robert Monroe had mapped all these areas more specifically. He called them by specific names, and then said to a friend of mine about those names, 'don't get hung up on the labels; I had to call them something.' Why was I late to the party? Because I had read Bob's Journeys Out of the Body, and was not very impressed because astral travel, ho hum, doesn't everyone know how to do this?

One of the first clues I had that Bob had been onto something was when my editor came back from their Gateway program saying, ' I was AT your Theatre. It's not a metaphor' and proceeded to describe a section of the theatre in familiar and vivid detail. Apparently, he had thought up til then that it was a metaphor, or that I had ' made it up.' Since he had 'never heard' of the Theatre, Green Room, University, etc., in any of his extensive readings, he thought it was a metaphor I employed. I was very amused at this naivete, and pleased to have been validated once again.
Later on, TMI graduates like Bruce Moen and Robert Bruce further mapped experiences There and I saw that they 'got it'. I was impressed.
For those of you interested, the 'Focus Levels' -Monroe Institute nomenclature for states of consciousness and areas of living beyond the 3D- are here explained:

Focus levels https://monroeinstituteuk.org/focus-levels/

 In the Theatre, we joke to our incoming people at the re-orientation tour that Hell can be found under our stage, and proceed to open the trapdoor. But there are areas There which can be thought of as hells, for whatever religion you are that believes in that. See the Belief Systems Territories.

For those preferring the scientific, the planes of existence and dimensions are well-described by Drake Stephen. The Planes chart corresponds to the 10 dimensions science has discovered to exist, and the Dimensions chart to the enfoldment of those dimensions (i.e. the 3D is within the 4th, which is within the 5th and so on.)

The Monroe material, with all its specific jargon, sufficed for some time in explaining matters to others. Then my friend Cathleen, to whom Bob Monroe had said 'Don't get hung up on labels' gave me the books of Dr. Michael Newton, and here not only was vast confirmation of my work There, soul levels, and how we are defined from Source, but a curious map of the learning centre(s) there, which looked to my eyes like the Fibonacci spiral. The map had the same curve of the main rooms and hallway of the Theatre.

Curious, I asked friends of mine at the University There, who knew that was their centre, to draw it for me, the buildings' location. And, there too, was the Fibonacci spiral. I looked at the Town, and all the other Centres related to life in the 3D -many of which don't deal with Earth incarnations - as well as the Life Council centre, and all were in the shape of the Fibonacci spiral.

The Fibonacci spiral numbers radiate at a vibrational frequency of 528 Hertz. This is used by biochemists to repair broken DNA. It is also the frequency of Gregorian chants. You can listen to a presentation with this frequency underlying here.

So, what does this 'mean'? To me, it is simply confirmation that we're all getting the same information based on our individual experiences, there is a specific plan to the conformation of not simply the 3D but to other dimensions as well, based on mathematics, vibrational and tonal frequency (and thus music), and that if you are seeking this information, the truth can be known. But it might not be what you have been brought up to believe.

For further exploration of experiences There, please have a look at Steve Beckow's compilation of some older automatic writings from people who have transitioned and are describing the landscape There. This will take some time to read, but do start with the section of accounts from those who are 'deceased'. New Maps of Heaven.

Ensemble Cast

Before recording any discussions, I thought I should introduce you to the main people with whom I interact, and my places. These are the people I work with, study with, study under, live with, visit often, and regularly encounter.

My work interactions happen in either the Theatre, which is a form of the Theatre Royal, Drury Lane in London; or in the Life Council chambers, which are in an area nearby, where everyone on Earth does their immediate past-life review and pre-life processing. Think Defending Your Life. That was a humourous take on the area, and not far wrong.

My "personal life" interactions happen in a cabin in the EcoVillage, which is a fairly new living area at the border between the Upper Astral and the Mental Plane, convenient for all who happen by; in the Villa, a Georgian house on Lake Geneva, inhabited by souls who were formerly Franz Liszt and George Gordon, Lord Byron; and sometimes at my father's house in the mountains.

For simplicity's sake, I will confine myself to the English names these folks have had. They go by other names, and it's best not to be attached to any particular name.

My most common interactions are with my Spirit, Oversoul, or Higher Self, Claire. She/I-There is the Assistant Director of the Theatre, a teacher, and a junior member of the Life Councils (which means "watch and learn and once in a while you will be allowed to ask questions".)

Next are my teachers/guides. I have a Senior teacher, Franz, and a Junior, George. Franz is now a member of the Life Councils and working with the Committee(s) who generate the Big Picture scenarios in the 3D; George is the Director of the Theatre, and is learning to "create roles", that is, lifetimes such as yours and mine. My other teacher is Madame (Maggie), who was my first teacher, of elementals, and from whom I learned to manage psyches, both in creating mind-states and managing people who are incarnating (something akin to a psychologist.) Presently, I am learning to take on her role in teaching the infant Spirits elementals - how to navigate in holoworlds under supervision, so to get their sea legs in terms of interacting with others.

The other person I interact with most frequently is Amy, our Stage Manager, with whom I personally as a soul and several of Claire's other "me's" have known in incarnations as friends, relatives, cohorts, and admired figures.

On a personal note, I frequently have conversations with my Dad (Ben), my mother (Natalie), both of whom have transitioned from earthly life. Less often I have conversations with my mother-in-law (Lorraine), my grandmother (Helen, or Mudd), and sometimes old friends Ed Carter and Johnny.

For now, this will do. The Grand Tour is next.

Welcome!

This blog will serve as a journal, both of present and past experiences and communications with what may be called non-physical entities and places. These go by many names, and one of the purposes of this journal is to unite all the names and structure systems I have encountered into a cohesive and unified whole, to the best of my ability. I wish to be inclusive, and while I have studied most of the major world religions and belief systems, and will endeavour to use neutral language, you, dear reader, should know from the outset that my primary orientation is to Jungian analysis, the broad view of the ethnologist Joseph Campbell, the work of Robert Monroe and others of his coterie, and that of Dr. Michael Newton. This may sound rather scientific, but I am not a sceptic. I come to this interaction from the space of being a natural, lifelong mystic, for lack of a better term.

Your own experiences and responses as a reader are a valuable part of the conversation,