Ruby Slippers

Some people are astonished or sceptical when I say that I have clear long-lasting memories as young as six months (of the assassination of JFK), or that I had multiple NDEs (near-death experiences, i.e., being revived) as a tint preemie. In the first case, I can only relate my experience of a house I never afterwards lived in, with people I did not see again after age 16 months. Of the latter, the hospital record will back me up as having 'many periods of apnea' in those 4 months in hospital.

My consciousness during those non-physical episodes was not one of an infant, but of a mature individual, distinct from my Higher Self Claire. The lasting effect of those NDEs has been a rather tenuous attachment to the 3D world, and an intense longing to 'go home', which predictably surfaces when life here is too intense, tense, stressful, or painful for my sensitive nature. I have been told by many people that I 'lack will' or stamina, which contradicts the testimony of the NICU nurses, who said that I was a 'survivor', that I endured due to sheer bloody will.

I have been petitioning my Life Council since I was two years old to be able to come home. They are unrelenting. I have 'work to do' here, related to the very subjects you are reading here. Very few people even know what I mean by 'go home'. They think I literally mean 'go back to my physical house.' A temporary solution is to vault myself into a state where I can 'go home' for a while, which is difficult to do when I am in a 'state' - physically or mentally. That's about the best I can manage here. I'm not knocking it. I will take every 'moment' There I can get while here.

When I heard of Dannion Brinkley, who has experienced three NDEs as an adult, I  was very heartened. He was the first person that I can recall who talked about these matters openly, back in the 1980s. And, having met him, I can say he is as genuine as can be, and a really open and NICE person.

Longing to go home is a very common feeling among NDEers, so at least I am not alone. We all have something here to do, which is why we remain. But access to There is thankfully available to all, at any time, free of charge.